Decaying into love

Im In Love Again n Again

2011-11-04T12:06:00.000-07:00

I love you As You Are

My shinning star

That’s a glittering smile

You have taken my breath away

My heart skips one and two

At countless glance of you

You make me fall in love again andagain

(Each time a mother look at her littlechildren,

she cant help it but being in love)

A Charmer

2009-09-02T13:37:00.001-07:00

Tangled Christmas lights*
Originally uploaded by Lee Ann L..

So everybody got excited about a proposal, and I was thinking how long should this one last. I thought I should at least give it a shot anyway for the sake of my poor mother who I was driving crazy..I actually enjoyed being the run way fiancée, it was the pursuit for perfection. Looking for faults and what drives me away from marriage prospects.

Once again there he was glowing in his dishdasha, back then I never new how lucky I was to see him in dishdasha (why read at end)*. The visit was in my home, he came with a family member and of course I was at home with my family members. My sisters thought, the poor guy what is he geting himself into and this will last give and take a month maybe. Clearly they told me that why a bother to agree meeting marriage suitors anyways. I thought Im all prepared for this meeting and a little I knew that the joke actually will be on me. The man just has this sweet talk and especially to stir mothers heart. Mr. Charming did his homework well. I was all prepared with a list to ask many questions in order to find out if we are compatible and I was ready to attack as soon as I get the opportunity to talk just two of us (okay so did not show around that Im have a question list). So as my mother and other family wanted to give us a chance for privacy talk Mr. Charming declared smoothly that he has nothing to say except in front of my mother and he added smoothly that he regarded my family as parents to him too. That for sure targeted and had won over my mother.

So with that I stuttered with my question and forgotten the other half the list was not in hand. Anyways the good news my mother suggested at end if there is any lingering questions we can always use the telecommunication technology and fire our question by phone. So he stirred again my mum by taking permission to have my number, okay it did impress me a bit. This was impressive being at 30 here I am, my phone number is requested by permission through my mother I thought that was affable in away, however do know what he thought when I gave him my Business card with my contact number.

*After marriage I found out that he loves being in jeans so much that he went in jeans to Ministry to all the places to go in jeans. Its just you don’t go in jeans in government offices where everyone, I mean men dress up officially the least they can wear is dishdasha if you don’t want to wear the full attire. I wonder if that is being rebellion or is it Burundi thing..

As I end here, I repeat who would have thought marriage would have such hilarious side. Its great to laugh at it and keep on living...

(Who knows there is more than this to come, till next time stay smiling)

Match Making

2009-08-29T11:58:00.001-07:00

dancing matches
Originally uploaded by bıtzı.

Being Omani born in Zanzibar, would love to write a book about or can titled it “Is It Omani, Burundi or Zanzibarian”, the reason behind this getting married to a man who is also Omani but born in area called Burundi. At times it seems such an alien to me. Who thought that although both came from a Swahili speaking background we still vary in many ways.

The story runs in many episodes of funny times and who thought that marriage has a hilarious turns, so I’m here on this ride taking as it takes within its course.

another match point
Originally uploaded by bıtzı.

Match Making
The race was on, reaching my thirties and being unmarried and having a sister younger than me who is already married with a child was a great worry for many family members. So everyone in the family took turns to find me a good suitor. Well, I never said no anyways, the meeting will be set up and after a month it will all fall apart. Suitors were reducing with my reputation and less and less approaching. The best part of this is whenever there is a family wedding, I receive sympathy words “My dear don’t worry, your turn will come soon”. The last of the straw was our neighbour she took the same part of being the match maker. There I was in a sitting room meeting a stranger once again and trying my best to portray qualities of who I am. Personal information was exchanged and who thought that I’m distained to meet what who will be my husband to be.

(Soon to come)

~You Are Inspiring~

2008-05-27T15:29:00.001-07:00

Red Rain
Originally uploaded by CATeyes.

Even my sky craves for you
To take a gentle glance
So my eyes fulfils its craving
At nothing else but you my darling
To watch you from above
From cluster of clouds
It lets joy to be aroused
In a luminous rain
These clouds were nearly dying
Evaporating in hands of wind
Your existence:
Oh, how it allowed me
To feel again
To pour what was forgotten
Tears of rain
My destiny in your hands
Mine is been enlightened
Through one glance at you
You are so inspiring
Even without you knowing

Copyright 2008 Nasra Al Adawi

This poem was inspired after reading and hearing the voice of Maithri Goonetilleke in his blog http://dontdiewithyourmusicinyou.blogspot.com/ and I was speechless in hearing Even The Sky Is Crying ...

Photo of Red Rain is by Sarah in flickr.com

I go on

2008-05-03T13:52:00.001-07:00

Life goes on
Originally uploaded by Lumase.

Once
Tips of you fingers
Seems to embrace me
The hold of your hands
Sweeps me into safety
No matter
How much I grow
I'm still your girl
Have I ever told you?
That I still keep missing you
Where have you gone
Left me in absence
How painful is time
Without your presence
I'm not sure if I'm brave enough
Facing the trenches all alone
I have no choice but to go on
Glowing within my inner grief
I go on

Sparks of Women

2008-02-20T12:13:00.001-08:00

Photo by romanlily at flickr.com.

Dar Al Atta Association holds Sparks of Women, a poetic evening celebrating womanhood and the role of women in community. Coinciding with Women of Color Day which is annually celebrated on achievements of women of color which started in United States and now celebrated internationally on every 1st of March.

The evening will host women poets among them from India Priyanka Sacheti a creative writer and published three volume of poetry based in Muscat and Reem Al lawati, an Omani Poet known by her daring Arabic Poetry, also Nasra Al Adawi will join with English poetry recital, and Jane Jaffer a published novelist will join with her poetic thoughts. More surprises are stored for this evening.

The evening is open to all, the event will start at 6:30 pm on 2nd of March 2008 at Dar Al Atta Association at Madinat Sultan Qaboos, for further information call 24692996

~Remaining Just A Glitter~

2007-12-26T20:06:00.001-08:00

starry night
Originally uploaded by razorbern.

~Remaining Just A Glitter~

I have finally woken up
Tearing your page
To countless stars
That meant to be released
Into far away space
A million light of distance, I stand
Gazing into past, your gone memory
Just bits left, glittering beautiful
That’s how memories…
Needs to be kept
Twinkling so far
Little stars in skies

Copyright 2007, Nasra Al Adawi

Photo in flickr.com by Razorbern. Click the photo to see other collection.

~ Transcending~

2007-10-15T13:56:00.001-07:00

"Que tranquila a paixão, toda silêncio e luz! " / " How tranquil that passion, all silence and light! "
Originally uploaded by César Augusto.

There is an absence
The air deserted space
No wind to sway the trees
Dew droplets remained
Did not slip away from leaves
There is me in this scene
A woman who imparted her name
In the sake to remain
Just a soul within your arms
A light that fills the absence
I'm your soul within the silence
In a transcending light
Ecstasy in burning flame
Unlike desire
In love tracing
Spread her rays
All alight with tenderness
This soul falls gently
Embracing yours

2007 Nasra Al Adawi

~Im Weather In Your Hands~

2007-08-20T05:21:00.001-07:00

Twister
Originally uploaded by Neville_S.

Ecstasy
That flamed within a single kiss
Fire embracing fire
Twirling emotion
Birthing tornado
Hot and cold
Vibrating unimaginable storm
Then wind halts
Emotions breathing in and out
The twister inside dies
Leaving silence touching emptiness
Invisible air
Shapes drops rippling blank atmosphere
I'm all those in your arms

Copyright 2007 Nasra Al Adawi

Photo by Neville at flickr.com

~Your Loving Soul~

2007-07-20T05:57:00.001-07:00

Drops in a web
Originally uploaded by catmadogma.

The taste of love, Keeps me sore
And I can't live without you
Every aches lingers
When you are not in my sight
If you know loving you keep me breathing
Beyond the beats of my heart
For my heart had long died
I continue being your loving soul

Copyright 2007 Nasra Al Adawi

Im taken by the art of the photographer ...so reciting the poem

~ Your Loving Soul~

2007-07-20T05:50:00.001-07:00

Web and rain drops
Originally uploaded by catmadogma.

The taste of love, Keeps me sore

And I can't live without you

Rain falls in tears

In every aches that lingers

Love aches at its first touch

Happiness, its not what it is all about

And you are the dream that Im dreaming

For my heart had poured in loving you

If you know loving you keep me breathing

Without the beats of my heart

Once every heartbeat of mine had died

I continue being your loving soul

Copyright 2007 Nasra Al Adawi

The photo is by catmadogma posted in flickr.com ..please click to enjoy other photo creativity

~Stabbing Rose~

2007-07-15T23:31:00.001-07:00

Rose_Thorns_6012
Originally uploaded by mike_feldman.

It was from a fragrance
Allured to unknown aroma
I knew it was my destiny to reach it
Crossed the distance
Walking so blindly
The scent paved a way for me
I took a first glance
I knew my search has come to an end
Glossy petals
In color of the fire
The closer I get
Its scent becomes stronger
My heart can not resist any longer
Daring myself in taking the first touch
It swayed so lazily
Like it could hear the rhythm of the wind
I’m sipping the passion through all my senses
In its silence, I receive its invitation
To explore and unleash the mystery
As I put my hand over its body
Like needle piercing through my flesh
I never noticed the thorns
Acute stab to my heart
Hidden intentions speaks silent language

© 2005, Nasra Al Adawi

The photo from Flickr.com by Mike Feldman..Pls click the photo to get get inspired by other photos

~Moonlight In You~

2007-05-04T04:23:00.001-07:00

moondialdhow3
Originally uploaded by Cogitationist.

Moonlight on your face
And I see its glow
Perhaps you could sprinkle
Shreds of flames to me
That encircles loneliness
Seizing my misery
Radiance calms a lament heart
I see contentment in your smile
Carefree in your journeys
Every journey of yours
Shapes a meaning
Humbleness
Core light of your soul
I wish I could learn
Your secret
And you wait for no success
It’s granted to you
Freedom floats within you
Moon floats in the sky
Yet there is another side to the moon
A face of you
Is frighten to appear
A full circle of darkness
A burned out candle
Withholding agonies
Since when a moon spills tears!
The man in you cannot set it free
Strings of me adores your strength
The desire to tangle
Within your surroundings
Despite all complicity
You take the walk of life
Akin to leaf falling with easiness
Allow me to love your moonlight

Copyright 2006 nasra al adawi

Inspired by DON of http://poeticalchemist.wordpress.com/, every day I learn something new about life and what it can bring to me as a person who lives it

Im Your Diary

2007-03-30T11:54:00.001-07:00

Moleskine
Originally uploaded by Comma H.

I never thought that you kept a diary And on each page,

I was the character of your life story

The only one, yet the ink that had scripted me

It went beyond the surface of the laid pages

The engraving of your love I found it deep within your heart

I was the only one in your secret book

In every day this book its becoming thicker

In every page you made a new oath to love me forever

Could I be blessed with such love

Every day, I seem to fade away

Wondering if I’m worthy of such love

I question my soul, whether my heart have given enough

Or have it failed in giving the justice of devotion

I continue praying that the capacity of being human

Doesn’t fail me to love you eternally

©Nasra Al Adawi, 2004
Writen for the English Sabla

The photo by Comma H, many thank for your photo

Phase of Darkness

2007-03-09T21:33:00.001-08:00

Into The Light
Originally uploaded by Jessica New.

I hope my phase of darkness will be a story of past
To gain wisdom to enlighten my path
I'm knocked through the corners of life
To truly seek, it is not an easy climb
In anticipation for the best quality of me to remain in me
Living, it is not merely about existence
Creating the person within one self is a continuous fight
With such aspiration, I pray that I don't loose this sight
Sometimes darkness creeps on the vulnerable hearts
The battle is over
I put my resistance with all my soul might
Out of darkness into the light

Many thanks to flickr.com, the photo is by Jessica New - do click the photo to view more other collection.

Entanglement

2006-12-28T14:40:00.000-08:00

When I grow into love
A garden field finds its way
A path of earth
That sobers me
Not just romance
Falling gently with dew
I find myself
Had grown
In maturity of tree
Like a wall built to stand
Defeating obscurities
I learned to make space
Without titles of scarifies
Meeting you half the way
As me and you tangle
Birthing a new meaning
In our entanglement
Just one obvious tree
Strong enough
Hardly can bend
In currents of wind

Copyright 2006 Nasra Al Adawi

I dedicate this poem to Rauf . Who has been kind enough to offer his photos to me to use with my poetry without even asking his permission. Rauf had somehow discovered that I get really inspired through photography. The photo of this tangled tree was so touching, I just had to gaze at it and allow it to speak to me. Please click (Here)to visit his blog. He has a very informative blog with powerful thoughts….

Rain Awakes

2006-12-21T07:30:00.000-08:00

Brush of grey clouds
Watching from far distance
Reluctant to allow the sun
So it will pierce light in me
Shadow of rain
Urging to fall
Yet like my tears
The sky above have not opened
A doorway of rain
My tears remain
All locked within
Its the transparency of rain
Absolves aches
A touch of romance under the rain
Relighting forgotten fire
Yet fire don’t flame in rain
No sparks to rekindle
Just inner flame awakes in rain

Copyright nasra al adawi 2006

I thought to carry my camera in search for traces of rain. As I stopped to capture the image sadness took over me in reflection of the clouds (I suppose). It's been awhile I have wanted to take images near by my home.

The photos above are mine taken on the same date of this post

~Im emptiness~

2006-12-01T00:26:00.000-08:00

Empty air
Originally uploaded by s22026.

Just silence
Lost voice without you
silent than the wind
That is who I am
No one ever notice
The empty space without the wind
Im not a breeze that might touch your face
Im not even the invisble air
Tickling your skin hair
Im emptiness left in void

copyright iamnasra 2005

many thanks s22026 for this empty photo. Its so lovely photo

Unknown Passion Flare

2006-11-02T11:02:00.000-08:00

Just before the storm
Originally uploaded by Wam Mosely.

A stranger
That is who you are
Our greeting
Started with gentle smile
By single note of a smile acquainted
Your eyes into mine
In a spare of millisecond
Our lives were bound and connected
Mingled by the waves of fate
The destiny played its tunes
Just right
Two hearts embodied in single beat
In water of attraction stirred
All unaware
Melting in echo of our emotions
Life beyond life
Breathtaking moment
Beyond compare
Night or day
The magic lingers without an end
Entwined in a passion flare
Dancing unaware

copyright 2005 Nasra Al Adawi

I owe my thanks to this lovely photo to Wam Mosely posted in flickr.com on 28 Dec '05

Countless Glitters of Stars

2006-10-23T14:33:00.000-07:00

, originally uploaded by aspect satyr.

O. Love
Come back to me
Once again
Remind me how to light
Countless glitters
Into this darkness
Painting this earthly space
In glitters of stars
I flame so far away
I flame so kindly
Yet my voice is million years
Distant from you
Watch me, twinkling in every star
Know that lovingly, I’m reaching out for you
I know from that corner of earth
You stand watching- the far away galaxies
There I am catching the never ending glimpse of you
Gratified for the moment that seems to last me forever
Into my wondering soul

copyright 2005, nasra al adawi

Creations of God

2006-07-23T14:54:00.000-07:00

On The Border, originally uploaded by Bisbohemian.

I owe an apperciation to Make A Living As A Poet
for this poem ..

This love of ours
Lingered in to various oceans
Crossed the eternity lines of centuries
It would not merely cross imaginary borders!
A barricade that separates us
Putting us as a tag of nation or race
We prefer to have a passport of being human
Or lovers that once have existed this beautiful earth
We rather be labeled nothing more than being among creations of God
So here and forever remember us
As once we were creations of God
Rejoiced in love
Deeply believed that love goes across man-made borders
It could never be a felony, to be imprisoned for life

© 2006 nasra al adawi

Reinvented Tunes

2006-05-11T02:14:00.000-07:00

The Music
Runs again in my heart
Like never been heard before
Hearing it for the first time
I know that this music is beyond musical notes and tunes
Seeing the joy that it brings from your eyes
Music that runs in the cord of our existence
Life, wraps of magical melodies
Up to us to reinvent the tunes

© Nasra Al Adawi, 2006

This Morning it had started with me getting a poem from Lorena. She opened my monring window to find music in the corner of my soul. Thank you for such gift of inspiration Lorena.

2006-03-15T05:51:00.000-08:00

Photo by Yarub Al Bakry

The Day Without Me

If the day happens to begin without me
I urge you not to let your tears fall for me
Know that I’m watching you while I depart
Now I ask you to be brave
Hold that beautiful smile on your face
New journey after life had been opened up for me
Never away-never apart from you
I’m closer to you than you may think
Waiting for you to join me in this path of eternity..

Taking the risk

2006-03-05T11:01:00.001-08:00

Silly Adventure have left me tagged so before you go any step further. You have been warned that you are reading this at your own risk

The risk shall be taken

As life is made with nothing but risks factors

I shall go on with the challenges

Though Im afraid to take it

I have no option but to sip in fire of risk

I have warned my heart

It prefer to sip the drink as without this sip

This heart of mine as might as well be dead

2006 nasra al adawi

1: Black and White or Color; how do you prefer your movies?
Colour, I do not recall black and white movies but I love black and white photgraphy. Im so taken with photos which has no touch of colour and nothing else but black and white

2: What is the 1 single subject that bores you to near-death? Well-Poltics..I just do not understand it

3: MP3s, CDs, Tapes or Records: what is your favorite medium for prerecorded music?
I have to say tape as I dont own MP3 except in my degital recorder but I do not use it so often. I have no CD in my car so it has to be tapes. I know its an old theme but it suits me just fine

4: You are handed one 1st class trip plane ticket to anywhere in the world and $10 million cash. All of this is yours provided that you leave and not tell anyone where you are going … Ever. This includes family, friends, everyone. Would you take the money and ticket and run?
It will really break my mums heart..Can not do it. I would have left and worked as volunteer in deserted land but knowing my mum is all I got can not do that to her

5: Seriously, what do you consider the world’s most pressing issue now?
I think the urge to help one another in time of need. Every one is so deeply involved in self building that it seems so hard to give a helping hand to another.

6: How would you rectify the world’s most pressing issue?
Hard work, call for unity amony our selves to be able to work hand in hand, and the main thing a touch of humanity that seem to be lost in our current life run.

7: You are given the chance to go back and change 1 thing in your life; what would that be?
Stayed with my dad when he was ill

8: You are given the chance to go back and change 1 event in world history, what would that be? The bilfour (I do nt know how to spell this) which was the starting point of palastine fight or islreal. Where palastine became homless and without a state
9: A night at the opera, or a night at the Grand Ole’ Opry –Which do you choose? Non of that I never been in Opera in my life so would not know and do not know what is Grand Ole' Opry (So how can I choose from something I do not know- but if Im taken why not I will for sure go as long it has no pronography what so ever ;-)).

10: What is the 1 great unsolved crime of all time you’d like to solve? I skip this

11: One famous author can come to dinner with you. Who would that be, and what would you serve for the meal?
Paulo Coelho well we go for vegetable with mashed potatoes and a bit of salad and tuna. well Im keeping up with my health and not to forget fresh cocktail (no alchol) without sugar.

12: You discover that John Lennon was right, that there is no hell below us, and above us there is only sky — what’s the 1st immoral thing you might do to celebrate this fact?
I will go singing

And the nominations for the next tag are
http://nezitic.blogspot.com/
http://green-eyedlady.blogspot.com/
http://poetsdinner.blogspot.com/

Living through You

2005-12-21T07:15:00.000-08:00

copyright of webshot

Living through You

I’m not sure where you go
Just let me go with you
I know you destination is uncertain
Your journeys have no beginning point
Nor does it have a spot to end
Carry me in your airy flow
I will stand through if your tide is strong
The turmoil of hot and cold
I want to linger into your journeys
Joining you in your boundless crossings
To witness all your heights
Maybe your were a whirlwind in yesterday’s phase
A weary wind today
Tomorrow a tickling breeze
I want to live through you all

Copyright 2005 nasra al adawi

Dieing with Me

2005-10-08T12:24:00.000-07:00

A farewell rose
Left on my door
at the early hours
of a new day
Blossoming with tears
Your tears of farewell
No card were left
No words were said
Just your name
Written on an only leaf
A leaf that joined this lonely rose
Like companion to a new journey
And here I am
With no companion but my soul
If roses can be embraced
I would embraced it so tight
to my heart
I can breathe the scent of your tears
Blended with the aroma of this rose
Surrendering to my emotion
Drowning the radiant petals with tears
Passing my pain to it
In silence drinking my salted sorrow
Dieing with me

Photo and poem by Nasra Al Adawi

Rebirth

2005-10-03T12:26:00.000-07:00

Thoughts rebirth
the walk
on the beach

2005-09-16T11:10:00.000-07:00

The waves
Takes me
Unsolicited destination

Hoping

2005-09-03T01:13:00.000-07:00

If it happens, that words could forever reverberates
Adjourning the soul in this recital of words
I’m hoping it shall be my name,
Reverberating through your lips

Though I’m uncertain if memory could endure the aging race
A legendary masterpiece is unforgettable -even if it’s in a short glance
I’m hoping I will be unending in your mind
Everlasting glow remains through the darkness
Kindly awaking your heart on its time of silence

Witnessing the silence of the sky
Towards embracing the earth without boundaries
I’m hoping you will embrace my heart with love
Giving love with out limits or boundaries
For love can be spacious-unlimited as the sky

© 2005, Nasra Al Adawi

Kutumaini
(Swahili Transltion )

Kama itatokea, maneno milele kurindima
Nafsi kuipokea, inayoyaghani daima
Ni matumaini yangu ni jina langu
Ndilo litarindima mdomoni pako.

Ingawa sina yakini ufahamu kutopotea
Na kizazi kinachozeeka
Sanaa bora inayosifika
Haisahauliki hata kwa jicho la kupita
Ninatumai, ntakuwa nisoisha moyoni mwako
Mng’ao wa kudumu gizani
Ukiuamsha moyo wako kwa upole
Uwapo kwenye hali ya kunyamaa

Mfano wa kimya mang’aingani kikumbatiavyo ardhi bila mipaka
Natumai utaukumbatia moyo wangu kwa upendo
Ukinipa penzi liso vipimo wala mipaka
Kwani pendo laweza kuwa na ujazo – uso ukomo kama anga

My Dearest Father

2005-08-20T07:42:00.000-07:00

My Dearest Father

I get so sad
When I mention your name
My tears fall
I wonder if you knew
How precious you are
I love you so much
I just never knew that
Now you are gone
I will not get the chance to hear that sound
The sound of father's love in your voice
It was- a long distance between us
It could hardly be explained
I felt your love
Father's love
And now you are gone
I only have a faithful prayer
For our Mighty Lord to love you,
To give you love and peace
The way you always loved me..

From your loving daughter: Nasra

I Search

2005-08-19T03:42:00.000-07:00

I search for love
In you
I seek it
In the deepest corner of who you are
Your soul
I find it abstract, tangling many emotions
The biggest part of it, is your search of who you are

I search for love
At first tone of your voice
I try to capture it in my soul
I pluck every whisper of love
Scrutinize its true thread
I remain unsure in a mass of my search
As I surrender to you
Body and soul
Still seeking your love
I search for it, in a language of intimacy
If I can touch it, in a breath of your manhood
In a scream of first tangled physique
The tangible pain is beyond the comprehend of this soul
Love is unquenched with merely body intimacy
I’m still thirsty for love

I search for love
In ever corner of this earth
Then I return to seek it
On a circle of reflected glow
The cycle of moon
Trying to explore it
Even over its hollow darkness
I find it empty, just like me
Wanting to be a sacred of emotions
Like a moon cycle
Some days a radiant glow
Then there are days I exist in darkness
Little by little
I rebel against this dark emptiness
Absorbing hollowness in crescent glow
Till I merge to be a full moon again

Touch me Love

2005-07-20T13:37:00.000-07:00

Touch me Love
Take me to any miles
I’m not going to be afraid,
Even if you walk out of me
I have more reason to thank God,
That there was love and it touched me in many ways
I may cry, but it shall never be tears of regrets
Just feeling blessed as love have touched my soul
Some of us take the journey of love
To merely find out- it’s a deception for wanting love so much
I-here realize the blessings for being touched with such love

First droplet of rain

2005-06-29T08:23:00.000-07:00

My hands touch

first droplet of rain

brings love to me

Pure droplets of bliss
gently falling
over my life

Invisible trail
all over my body
for it to linger- I wish

2005-05-30T21:32:00.000-07:00

Angelic flower

Testimony across the Moon

2005-05-25T12:44:00.000-07:00

I remain right over here

Staring across the night

Staring at your eyes

I’m unaware when your eyes faded from my scene

Your image remains, merging with glow of the moon

I’m must been taken with light feather dream

My soul took a sudden flight towards the moon

With bold fonts, I scribbled on its walls

“I’m the soul loving you forever”

With red ink of my heart I wrote these words

As every time the moon glows

You will find my testimony of love across its walls

Loving you as always

2005-05-23T08:35:00.000-07:00

Though you had hurt me

I will always love you

I will forgive you

My heart is unable otherwise

I have no room to hate you

All my life I lived for loving you

So I continue on my journey

Loving you as always

I Surrender

2005-04-27T07:48:00.000-07:00

I whispered to my soul to persuade my heart

Let it not fight love any longer as I have been searching for a long while

For so long waited for love-to take over me

Dissolving the tension of waiting,

Would cupid disapprove?

Here, I’m ready for love

I’m ready for passion

Lace my soul to this fulfillment

The flame of candles racing my desire

The moonlight, tuning this moment into fantasy

Walking into romance, I feel the burning of my heart

I’m surrounded with flowers,

Yet its more than that- it’s the melting into lovers touch-I require

My mind is tied in a candy wire

I would not resist, hypnotized- I feel I’m strapped in silk

Drowsy into its charms, I’m willing to take the risk

So wonderful, I’m tantalized

Beyond the hunger of food, I’m yearning for dinner of love

It begins with a kiss, I surrender all

A new morning, a new day, I’m still tucked under his embrace

Taken by the happiness, I have found love

Passing Magical Moment

2005-04-14T00:00:00.000-07:00

Passing Magical Moment

I saw a shadow in a distance

Walking in the mist

I was gazing at you my love

Was not the softness of the mist?

Tickling gently your skin

Still I'm watching you

At a time the sun laid its first rays

Somehow, it's not the sunrise

Absorbing the darkness

Still walking

But now you are passing our house garden

Its not the breeze

Shaking the trees

Now briefly stopping

The fountain caught your attention

It's not the bubbles in the fountain

Awaking the silent water

Now I run to embrace you

You greet me poetically

It's not the rhythm

Making your words a poem

Here we are

Falling in a morning romance

Its not only me and you

Creating this love

It’s the passing magical moment

Accepting

2005-03-18T10:51:00.000-08:00

Accepting

No, it’s not a trespass
Just lovingly to reach your soul
Dispose your inner wall
Just lovingly, let me get through you
Allow this heart of mine to pass
Maybe in matters of love, I have no clue
I just trust my instincts to reach your path
Just lovingly allow me to be with you
Your eyes reveal that you love me too
I feel, you are entrapped and afraid
Love is not a man made
Just accept it lovingly
A heavenly gift of God
True, once it falls on a human palm
There many wrong doers in the name of love
Love at times becomes a deception game
Those are abiding with the integrity of love- still are not few
Let you inner soul to talk to you
You will surely find your way
Just lovingly, accept a heavenly gift of God

2005, nasra al adawi

Sinking with Secrets

2005-03-09T00:20:00.000-08:00

If you saw yourself just once,

The secret of secrets

Would open to you.

The face of the unknown,

Hidden beyond the universewould appear on the

Mirror of your perception.

Written by Rumi

( Jalaluddin Rumi (1207-1273) has been called ',the greatest mystical poet of any age." As a young boy he showed all the signs of saintliness and his father called him Maulana, "Our Master." By age twenty-four he was an acknowledged Master of Arabic grammar, Islamic law, Koranic commentary, astronomy)

SECRETS

"Rumi speaks of the Open Secret. He says that each one of us is trying to hide a secret-not a big, bad secret, but a more subtle and pervasive one."

Source http://www.feminist.com/resources/artspeech/insp/opensecret.html

"There are different types of secrets, some that promote pleasurable anticipation and others that create uneasiness and tension. It is this second kind of secret that we are concerned with here. These involve things that the holder of the secret dreads others learning about because they deal with real or perceived unpleasant or disturbing matters. These are secrets whose very existence is often even a secret. Such secrets are unhealthy, burdensome, and a product of shame or guilt."

Th above is qouted from http://www.gettingunstuck.com/Film/Topic_Page/Secrets.htm

"Ocean of Secrets"

Do we dare to explore
What goes beyond that shore
To risk and take the chance
How far we'll advance
In reaching deep inside
To the mysteries that reside
Within your lonely heart
And the battles taken part
The struggles between right and wrong
The endless attempts to stay strong
Will we ever be able to reach out?
And get to know without a doubt
To reveal the secrets that you hold
The tales that never been told
Or we're gonna drown in your ocean
And get lost between chaos and confusion
Like those before who went astray
Trying to find your secret hideaway

By Hopeless Poet

Sinking in Secret

This guilt is clawing into me
I declared defeat, sinking to my death
Yet my soul is not left to die in peace
At this final moment, I have no tool to speak
This secret is a heavy agony to die with
A life time of waiting to submit the truth
The secret, shall I keep or release?
On the edge to cease without return
Two vowed to keep a secret
Though I was about to reveal,
But the secret is not only mine
So let me sink without breaking my oath of silence

2005, nasra al adawi

Hear me

2005-03-02T06:35:00.000-08:00

Enter into my soul

Sink deeper into its core

Let your soul dwell over there

My soul is open embracing you

Touch its walls, its not so obscure

It's all so simple

Just little love, not so ample

It will nourish the cells

As once, it used to be so sore

On the edge of decaying with time

Somehow on living its clings

Fighting to retain more than that

Once the truth is out, it can not be shut

Here I am -have opened my soul

It's just for you to hear me, not waiting for you to take any role

...........Just To Touch You Lovingly.............. (A poem by Susan Ratliff)

2005-03-01T00:08:00.000-08:00

Just To Touch You Lovingly (27 February 2005)

I stand alone on this cold night
With my eyes raised to the sky
Thinking of you up above
And wondering if you knew
You were loved down here

The tears I try to fight
Wondering still why
I gave you all my love
I did all I could do
What did you fear

Now the moon is in sight
I wonder why you had to die
What’s up there above
Wasn’t my love enough for you
This has been my greatest fear

I often wonder if I might
Have changed your choice to die
Have somehow given you more love
If there had been more I could do
To somehow keep you here

But now you’ve disappeared into the dark
Only the stars to guide my way to you
The moon bright and the clouds clear
As an Angel reaches down to touch me
The warmth is a feeling so true

Softly I whisper up to the sky
I may never know exactly why
You chose on that day to die
You didn’t say goodbye
Before you floated up so high

But I still love you today
In that same strong way
I’d give anything to see
You once again before me
Just to touch you lovingly

Written By Susan Ratliff

Thoughts from Al Kindy

2005-02-26T07:35:00.000-08:00

Love isn’t the search for perfect person but acceptation of imperfect one with all his lucks as perfection.

Love, Chance or Choice

When we meet right person in right time while we’re in right place and right time - is the chance.

If you meet someone whom you like - it’s not a choice but chance.

To capture the moment (a lot of people stay together because of it) isn’t a choice either but chance.

Difference is what happens after all when we getting passion ally involved.

Next step is when first feelings and passion cools down and you start thinking: either you want to turn everything into certain relationship or this is just a flirt.

If you decide to love person with all his mistakes and odds - this isn’t chance but choice.

If you decide to stay with person no matter why - this is the choice.

Even if you know that there are lots of others who more beautiful, smarted and richer than your darling (the chosen one) and despite that you keep on loving him just the way he is - this is the choice.

Passion, flirt, sympathy come to us by chance.

But the real love, that last forever - is the real choice. Choice that we make.

Regarding meant - to be - for each other – souls (soul mates), it’s a beautiful movie that says: "Fate brings you together but it’s up to you to make it work - to be happy"

I’m sure that such souls do exist. There is someone who was born for you.

But it’s up to you to choose if you’re going to do something about it.

We can meet our soul mate by chance, but to love this person and to stay with him - remains to be a choice that we have to make.

We came to this world not to find perfect person but to learn how to love imperfect one for real...

When I Fall to Sleep

2005-02-25T09:50:00.000-08:00

When I fall to sleep
I fall so deep
I see this dream
Its about you and me
In unknown realm
Taking a shape of film
Drowning in silence, yet our emotions are in steam
Nothing looks like what it seems
Its all beyond the realistic beams
We are glowing in hope
I confront you that I wish this day won’t stop
Confronting the truth, we are part of my dream
Your eyes fall in gloom
As I try to reach for you-I fall in a hole of darkness,
I awake from what it seems to be- just a dream
©2005, nasra al adawi

Matrimonial Ride

2005-02-17T04:42:00.000-08:00

Out of my expectation

He asked me to define marriage

Many have spoken on the matrimonial ride

Mine would be among those many

Yet it might possibly fade with a spirit of time

Marriage for some is a union between woman and a man

Somehow it can be more than that

Perhaps a unity of two souls

It strikes the demons of loneness

To vanquish the demons inside, it needs deep understanding

For many are in the marriage circle, yet are fading in loneness

They shell themselves into a lonely bed

Watching the betray of the soul and heart as one remain untouched

Marriage is not a testament of scarifies

It takes many water drips of two forming a pond

Marriage is not a fare tale dream that await for us to reach

Fate plays its tune, still it's us who creates the final a song

Some seek a partner an image of a savior from drown

Waiting to be swept away with love

I wonder if it exist or it's an imagery of romance

Love is real- the boat of love it needs two to paddle

If not -the wind can turn it over to unexpected direction

Over the unexpected crises communication lapse

Misunderstanding detach us from the soul unity that we were in

Only we find ourselves on a final stage sinking but in a separate ways

Fevering

2005-02-14T03:07:00.000-08:00

It is without you
I'm fevering into nostalgia
How come I'm enslaved to you?
When did you drizzle the dosage of love into me?
All I know my heart is straying into mystery
There is no where else but you were I can find a safety shore
How did you slave my heart into your compassion?
Melting away all its senses
And in the name of love even honor was discarded out of me
Accepting to live in this fantasy
It scares me that my heart had glided into you
I wonder - when will it come out of this dream?
When it will grasp into the message of reality
Its seems my heart is forever gliding into the crescent of love
Should it fall -Would your love still be its home
It had trusted your love so much
Surrendering even its soul in a blind faith without a second thought
I pray that your love is not merely a sandcastle
I made it by my own hands but soon or later it will eventually fall

copyright 2005 nasra al adawi

Sinking

2005-02-03T13:53:00.000-08:00

Your silence has spoken
Many words that you have left unspoken
I never understood the language of silence
Your silence remained so long
Though my heart refused to seek deeper into its meaning
So afraid to face the bitter truth that the portrait of love is a photo fake
Preferred to live many days in pretense
Your silence continued, and my inner pain became unbearable
I kept convincing myself that I’m taking it all wrong
I kept telling myself that you have good explanation
Give time for the river to flow back to its path
I continued to give courage to my heart
Its all sinking now. The truth and pain sinking deeper into my soul
I want to hold my tears
I do not want cry I want to be courageous in this
But the pain is beyond my strength
Know that I’m not crying for you
These tears grieving for being so vulnerable in your hands

Winding My Heart

2005-02-02T10:18:00.000-08:00

My vision was:
To give you love without pretense
Vivid soul wants to give all it has
Yet if it can its tempted to give more
It could hardly deny anything for love
Even presenting the last breath of it soul
Somehow you have been winding my heart
Your feelings were drawn away from my path
You are expecting me to free you from my heart
In a glimpse of a second to erase you from my soul
I could hardly breathe, I’m dying here inside
I can not lock you in my world
As I have taken the oath of love, you are free to go
Know that I love you to death but I will not chain you for sure
I have forgiven you for all the painful tears that you in stored

Ó2005. nasra al adawi

Time Reveals (Haiku)

2005-02-02T09:41:00.000-08:00

Only with time
It will be able to reveal
The hidden beneath

copyright 2005 nasra al adawi

This Poem

2005-02-01T13:33:00.000-08:00

This poem written to you to put a smile on your face
To take your heartache in all the years that it could not erase
And I wish I could cry with you
As I felt the amount of pain that you went through
Life does not pause to our liking
Certain situations are frightening
Still we need to stand against the turbulence of life
Her I am reaching to you
I will be a shelter when it rains
I will try to be a refuge to your pain
And when you need to cry
My shoulder is here to hold you through
So this poem is written to you to let you know I’m here for you
©2005. nasra al adawi

My Submission

2005-02-01T13:21:00.000-08:00

Upon my submission to love
It arrived to me I’m unaware
Mugged into life with a challenging dare
Motionless as I took a deep stare
For a long time I froze my soul into a stone
Accepted that all but love I can not own
At time when I accepted life living alone
My plans were torn
As the days drag it self unexpected miracle is grown
I’m left to gaze deeply into dawn
Suddenly I feel I’m drained out of life
Yet breathing is my sign for being alive
Beyond my protest to the unknown I dive
Till my final submission to love I put my ultimate strive
Such destiny took its final laughter
Granted me love- if it was by choice I would never go after
I made a promise to give every thing except for love I closed my door
I thought nothing will deter me from this lore
Never expected that fate runs its own wheel
Destiny swaps our expectations in a reel
When love strikes seems this heart is of out shield
Suddenly I find myself in a magical field
Love takes the total spell
Even baring the soul out of its shell
Deterring on my intended mission
I can not deny myself into this final love submission

Copyright 2005, nasra al adawi